Recently I met someone new.

She is a beautiful woman, smart, creative and with a smile that can light up a room. We have talked about quite a few different subjects and I find myself so comfortable in our conversations that I actually shared this blog with her.

What I did not expect, was for her to actually begin reading it in front of me. I could not decide if I should walk away and give her some space, or just sit while she read. I decided to sit and as I watched her facial expressions change while she read, I could tell she went back and read a few things more than once.

My anxiety went through the roof, because I had no idea how she would take the writing, nor if she would judge me once she got the whole picture. Yet, I could not pull myself away. It was so fascinating to watch her read and respond to the actual words. The first person that I actually knew that not only would read all of this, but do it right in front of me. My fears went unfounded as she accepted all that I have written in a few posts and my hope is that she will read the rest.

While both of our circumstances have issues, I think of her a lot. I love her intellect, her eyes, her amazing smile, her caramel skin and her natural hair.  There is an obvious age difference, yet I wonder what her kisses would taste like, to have her in my arms for something other than a goodbye hug.

I could never tell her these things of course and I hope she has finished reading the rest of the blog before I post this so she may not even see it. I think we have started a friendship and I certainly hope that we can go on to become good friends. I don’t think it is possible to hope for more.

Once you reach a certain age, friendships are all you can work towards.