So often I sit and enjoy the beauty of nature and the city around me, only to have my mind turn to darkness and grief.
Grief, because I can no longer share the beauty I see with Annie. The anxiety overwhelms me and everything I do.
During these times, I desperately want to travel to Thailand to visit her final resting place.
Yet, I am terrified of making that trip, because once I see her final resting place I fear for what I would do to allow me to stay with her forever.
This is my normal state of mind, and it is not a good place to be.
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